Chosen

Hmm, kinda appropriate that the title of this post is the title of the final episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

My part time stint during the weekends is coming to an end.

Am deeply saddened coz I love doing it. Sigh.

The silver lining? I now have my weekends free to pursue whatever it is that I wanna pursue. Or go back to my hometown and be with family...

The cloud? Money won't be enough to do anything... :(

End of Days

I realize that I've left out some friends in the celebration of my birthday. I promise I'll make it up to them.

This was the longest I've ever celebrated a birthday. Almost every day during the whole week.

It's nice to feel appreciated and I've gotten some nice presents too. :)

Even the people who I anticipated would not remember my birthday... remembered...

And starting tomorrow, I am attempting a slight change...

Touched

I am jealous.

Of a colleague.

He is constantly surrounded by guys. Some of them are hot.

While I am not.

I guess I am not that sociable. But even if I wanted to, I am kinda awkward with guys, especially guys I like.

Sigh. Slowly but surely, the guys talk to me but I think that's mostly coz the colleague is always hanging around me... oh well...

Empty Places

Got a few days off. Took off to hometown to see family. Yup, all on my own accord. They were shocked to see me back. Everything was okay back home. Mom was not overwhelming. The food was great. I am fatter now... hehehe...

But I cut the time off back home short because we planned a party and I was kinda roped in as one of the organizers. And I was supposed to go to Penang for assignment. So I left what was probably a very good visit with the family to come back to KL, only to find out that both had been canceled.

All kinds of cuss words escape my lips. This will not happen again.

Dirty Girls

Am resisting the urge to go to the Book Fair... need to be strong... need to wean myself off of that feeling...

He asked me today if I was going... I said no... even though I wanted to...

I think it's the right thing to do... getting my heart used to the absence... sigh...

Lies My Parents Told Me

It's time for a change.

I've started to cut myself off of bad elements that's plagued me before, like evil exes, hehehehe.

I've also taken up more responsibility at work so I am married to work now.

Guess that's good since my financials are a bit of a mess at the moment.

But there would be no more outings for me... scratch fun off of my vernacular... unless I steal a bit of time from work and go out for a little bit... sigh...

Lucky I love my job so much...

Storyteller

Hot off the press!! I've known this for quite some time and I've experienced it to some extent. But now, I think it's gone too far.

People in the office love to talk about my sexuality. To other people. In my presence, luckily. Not that I could do anything about it. They'd blurt it out a lot. Sigh.

Today, I was in a meeting with the big boss and somehow they were talking about gays and roped me in. They talked about my sexuality and the fact that I am still manly even thought I love men. In front of my boss!!

I had to not look him in the eye coz he was looking straight at me. Did not know what else to do. Luckily for me, he recovered after one minute and continued on with the meeting.

Hope this won't affect me in any way.... sigh...