Am resisting the urge to go to the Book Fair... need to be strong... need to wean myself off of that feeling...
He asked me today if I was going... I said no... even though I wanted to...
I think it's the right thing to do... getting my heart used to the absence... sigh...
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
Lies My Parents Told Me
It's time for a change.
I've started to cut myself off of bad elements that's plagued me before, like evil exes, hehehehe.
I've also taken up more responsibility at work so I am married to work now.
Guess that's good since my financials are a bit of a mess at the moment.
But there would be no more outings for me... scratch fun off of my vernacular... unless I steal a bit of time from work and go out for a little bit... sigh...
Lucky I love my job so much...
I've started to cut myself off of bad elements that's plagued me before, like evil exes, hehehehe.
I've also taken up more responsibility at work so I am married to work now.
Guess that's good since my financials are a bit of a mess at the moment.
But there would be no more outings for me... scratch fun off of my vernacular... unless I steal a bit of time from work and go out for a little bit... sigh...
Lucky I love my job so much...
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Storyteller
Hot off the press!! I've known this for quite some time and I've experienced it to some extent. But now, I think it's gone too far.
People in the office love to talk about my sexuality. To other people. In my presence, luckily. Not that I could do anything about it. They'd blurt it out a lot. Sigh.
Today, I was in a meeting with the big boss and somehow they were talking about gays and roped me in. They talked about my sexuality and the fact that I am still manly even thought I love men. In front of my boss!!
I had to not look him in the eye coz he was looking straight at me. Did not know what else to do. Luckily for me, he recovered after one minute and continued on with the meeting.
Hope this won't affect me in any way.... sigh...
People in the office love to talk about my sexuality. To other people. In my presence, luckily. Not that I could do anything about it. They'd blurt it out a lot. Sigh.
Today, I was in a meeting with the big boss and somehow they were talking about gays and roped me in. They talked about my sexuality and the fact that I am still manly even thought I love men. In front of my boss!!
I had to not look him in the eye coz he was looking straight at me. Did not know what else to do. Luckily for me, he recovered after one minute and continued on with the meeting.
Hope this won't affect me in any way.... sigh...
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Get It Done
The date sucked. Sigh...
Moving on...
It's April tomorrow. Last year, April was such a good time for me. Specifically, 10 days of April. The Kuala Lumpur International Book Fair.
I was posted there to man the company booth. Guess who else was there? Yup. Him. Gosh, I haven't blogged about him for the longest time. #1 Crush. Sigh.
He was there for 10 days as well. We were kinda inseparable. Lunches together. Sometimes dinner. The occasional bowling or karaoke. He even cooked dinner at my place one night. He finished his shift early so he'd wait at my booth until I was done. Altogether now... awwww, so sweet...
Is he a good cook? Sure. But he has a tendency to overuse the turmeric thus turning my kitchenware yellow. Took me months to get that stain out. Hehhehe.
It was a great time and I missed those days when we were quite close. Nowadays, I am lucky if I get a YM message once a month... sigh...
Okay, so we were chatting in one of those rare moments that we chatted... and he asked if I was manning the booth at the Book Fair again...
I am touched that he remembered. Unfortunately, things happened and I am no longer involved in events, so I won't be working at PWTC this time around. I told him that and I also mentioned that I missed hanging out with him like last time (it's been almost six months now... last I was with him was watching Wall-E...) and that I had a good time during the Book Fair.
I remember having a fit when a friend of mine expressed interest in going to the book fair to see him and hoping that he'd get some action from #1 Crush. #1 Crush showed me the message and told me that he doesn't know who it was. I was quite hysterical and I blurted out, in front of #1 Crush, that #1 Crush was mine and that the friend had no right doing what he's doing.
Can't recall what his reaction was coz I wasn't looking at him. Fuming mad. He just said that he did not plan to meet the guy and he was not going to reply to the message. I thought I went over the line but #1 Crush did not stop seeing me afterwards so I guess it was alright.
Anyway, I told #1 Crush that it was too bad I am not working the Book Fair and that we could have hung out. He pffft my statement and said that we could still hang out coz my office is near PWTC anyway. Yes, I could not stop smiling.
But I know how these things goes. I'd be all hyper and happy but it would end up horribly as in he'd be too busy for me or he'd simply forget. I am prepared for anything. I haven't seen him in 6 months, why should it be any different now right? Well, now he's so near to me... sigh...
Moving on...
It's April tomorrow. Last year, April was such a good time for me. Specifically, 10 days of April. The Kuala Lumpur International Book Fair.
I was posted there to man the company booth. Guess who else was there? Yup. Him. Gosh, I haven't blogged about him for the longest time. #1 Crush. Sigh.
He was there for 10 days as well. We were kinda inseparable. Lunches together. Sometimes dinner. The occasional bowling or karaoke. He even cooked dinner at my place one night. He finished his shift early so he'd wait at my booth until I was done. Altogether now... awwww, so sweet...
Is he a good cook? Sure. But he has a tendency to overuse the turmeric thus turning my kitchenware yellow. Took me months to get that stain out. Hehhehe.
It was a great time and I missed those days when we were quite close. Nowadays, I am lucky if I get a YM message once a month... sigh...
Okay, so we were chatting in one of those rare moments that we chatted... and he asked if I was manning the booth at the Book Fair again...
I am touched that he remembered. Unfortunately, things happened and I am no longer involved in events, so I won't be working at PWTC this time around. I told him that and I also mentioned that I missed hanging out with him like last time (it's been almost six months now... last I was with him was watching Wall-E...) and that I had a good time during the Book Fair.
I remember having a fit when a friend of mine expressed interest in going to the book fair to see him and hoping that he'd get some action from #1 Crush. #1 Crush showed me the message and told me that he doesn't know who it was. I was quite hysterical and I blurted out, in front of #1 Crush, that #1 Crush was mine and that the friend had no right doing what he's doing.
Can't recall what his reaction was coz I wasn't looking at him. Fuming mad. He just said that he did not plan to meet the guy and he was not going to reply to the message. I thought I went over the line but #1 Crush did not stop seeing me afterwards so I guess it was alright.
Anyway, I told #1 Crush that it was too bad I am not working the Book Fair and that we could have hung out. He pffft my statement and said that we could still hang out coz my office is near PWTC anyway. Yes, I could not stop smiling.
But I know how these things goes. I'd be all hyper and happy but it would end up horribly as in he'd be too busy for me or he'd simply forget. I am prepared for anything. I haven't seen him in 6 months, why should it be any different now right? Well, now he's so near to me... sigh...
Friday, March 27, 2009
First Date
It's been quite some time since I had a day off. Almost two weeks of non-stop working. This week is the UMNO General Assembly.
Yesterday, I stayed in the office until 1am. Today also. Sigh.
And no, there's no overtime. Sigh.
My love life is also on the fritz since I am working all the time. Who am I kidding, I have no love life. Sex life still okay though. Hehhee... Ain't short of booty calls but booty calls always come when I am working. Sigh...
There's one date coming up on Saturday, which is my official first day off and I have to get up early coz it's a breakfast date. Sigh...
Yesterday, I stayed in the office until 1am. Today also. Sigh.
And no, there's no overtime. Sigh.
My love life is also on the fritz since I am working all the time. Who am I kidding, I have no love life. Sex life still okay though. Hehhee... Ain't short of booty calls but booty calls always come when I am working. Sigh...
There's one date coming up on Saturday, which is my official first day off and I have to get up early coz it's a breakfast date. Sigh...
Thursday, March 12, 2009
The Killer In Me
Office sitch is pretty much like a war zone these days.
A bunch of colleagues came up with the idea of doing a petition against one of the higher ups in the office. Almost everybody was complaining that this person has not been good for the working environment and morale. He doesn't really do his job but he kept sticking his nose in other people's business.
They all had enough. So the petition was brought forth. But there are some people who dun wanna rock the boat or just wanna play safe and refuse to sign the petition.
Mind you, these are the same people who kept complaining about how that person was bad and not communicate and making things harder yadda yadda yadda...
At first I did not wanna get involved as well coz it's not my war and not my department but I took a look at the petition and added one point and signed the petition. I do work with that person during my weekend shifts and I pointed out how he has not been helping...
War...
A bunch of colleagues came up with the idea of doing a petition against one of the higher ups in the office. Almost everybody was complaining that this person has not been good for the working environment and morale. He doesn't really do his job but he kept sticking his nose in other people's business.
They all had enough. So the petition was brought forth. But there are some people who dun wanna rock the boat or just wanna play safe and refuse to sign the petition.
Mind you, these are the same people who kept complaining about how that person was bad and not communicate and making things harder yadda yadda yadda...
At first I did not wanna get involved as well coz it's not my war and not my department but I took a look at the petition and added one point and signed the petition. I do work with that person during my weekend shifts and I pointed out how he has not been helping...
War...
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Potential
I dunno what's going on but my sexuality is a big deal in the office these days.
It's like they're proud of it or something. They talk about the guys that I like and some of them even went as far as telling the guys that I like them or asking for their numbers.
Sounds good on paper but most of the time, it's far more embarassing. Plus, I am a big gurl, I can flirt on my own. If it's a subtle attempt, I don't mind but this is a bit much. Sigh.
They talk about it openly. I am open, sure, but to certain people only. The newbies or people I don't know... have to earn my trust and respect before I would open up about myself...
It's like they're proud of it or something. They talk about the guys that I like and some of them even went as far as telling the guys that I like them or asking for their numbers.
Sounds good on paper but most of the time, it's far more embarassing. Plus, I am a big gurl, I can flirt on my own. If it's a subtle attempt, I don't mind but this is a bit much. Sigh.
They talk about it openly. I am open, sure, but to certain people only. The newbies or people I don't know... have to earn my trust and respect before I would open up about myself...
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