Health

Health has been an issue lately... so much so that I haven't been to work in a while... which usually is fine with me but I dun want the office to think I am this sick-prone person... sigh...

Anyway, in addition, now I have kidney stones... sigh... passing em will be hell for sure...

On the plus side, I have lost some weight or so it seems... people kept telling me this... :)

Jobs

Have started to get this feeling... that I am in a dead end job... even though I love working there and the job allows me much flexibility... but there is little guarantee I can move up the organization and even littler guarantee I can enter the mothership... I mean, the parent company... not to mention that the salary has been stagnant and the benefits too little and the annual leave is still stuck at 14... this is my fourth year... I think I have to do something... soon...

Blogs

I had been maintaining several blogs, with totally different topics... ya know, to keep it separate so that everything is clear...

Had to say goodbye to one of my oldest blogs... I started that blog in 2004... can you imagine? It had survived for almost 7 years... but due to several unfortunate circumstances, it had to go...

I actually had deleted that blog a couple of times... but that was due mostly to stalker issues... this time, it was due to the people around me...

It became an entity on its own, bigger presence than me... up to a point where people talk about it more than they talk about me... I mean, come on... it's just a blog... I am more than just words... but some people could not get past it and kept telling other people...

So I had to put a stop to it... might as well, the blog had run its course and was way off topic after a few years... I am sad that I had to let it go coz it felt like part of me... it was an outlet for me to vent out but I guess I have to vent out in some other way... sigh...

Writer

Am officially starting to write for a web magazine that is kinda cult-ish and aimed for our people only... not sure how I feel about them wanting a byline/bio/pic on it... coz... do I want to be associated OPENLY with that?

Hmmm... on one paw, I do like the idea of getting to write and contribute articles... but the sitch in Malaysia... is it really worth it?

The List

Found this while rummaging through the hard disk... Apparently, I've saved this list for a reason...

Target for 2005 or before I turn 27 (June 2006)
1. Travel out of the Country
2. Be in a relationship that lasts longer than 3 months
3. Save RM3000
4. Finish writing one script/book
5. Find affordable place
6. Have a nice group of friends
7. Talk to 12 strangers
8. Lose 22 kgs
9. Learn how to swim
10. Bowl a game of 210

Things to do before turning 30 (in June 2008):
1. Travel abroad (Australia, Indonesia, Europe)
2. Finish writing a book/script and/or get published
3. Own an apartment/house
4. Own a car
5. Have threesome with two white guys
6. Be invited to an orgy
7. Have 5000 bucks in savings account
8. Participate in extreme sports (bungee jump, sky-diving etc)
9. Get Lasik done on my eyes


Okay, so it's 2010 and I am 32 years old... have I accomplished any of the things I have listed to be achieved by 27 or 30? No. I have achieved some but only recently.

Well, I now have a nice group of friends. I do talk to strangers sometimes. I lost close to 22 kgs and I have bowled a game of 211.

I have traveled to Singapore. Had the threesome and the orgy, eheheh... that's all...

I should really shoot for the getting published part of the list...

She

Well, I am back... no longer in the relationship mentioned in the post below. But am now straddling a couple of 'relationships' but not exactly anchoring down anywhere.

Job-wise, I have been given the task of a copywriter. Unfortunately, this 'promotion' is not exactly in black and white and of course, no pay increase.

I am quite happy doing copywriting so I'll ride it out to see what's gonna happen later on...

Expecting

Good God, I've neglected this blog for soooooo long... I've been preoccupied with lotsa other things.

Hmm, lessee... what's new in my life... still living at the same place, still having the same job, which is slowly becoming the longest job I've ever had... ah, something is indeed new...

I am in a relationship now... albeit an open one... the other party insisted, of course... and it's a long distance relationship... today's the 26th day... maybe it lasted that long coz of the long distance...

Actually, and this maybe a post on its own but I am not exactly happy with some of the things in the relationship... but I dun wanna open that can of worms yet. I am going to meet up with him soon... yes, I am flying to see my man... :)

Somnambulist

Happy 2010 everyone... hopefully these two days of the new year hasn't sucked yet for anyone... :)

What have happened in 2009 that was memorable for me?

Hmm, lessee... I stuck it out in one job, even though it was taking its toll on me mentally, physically and emotionally...

I did a Britney and shaved my hair off...

I was in a 'relationship' for less than a week... hehehe... money boy...

Got 4th place in a national treasure hunt... even though we actually placed 2nd, but coz of penalty, we got bumped down to fourth...

Started a food blog...

Got placing in a bowling tournament... not a media tournament, but an actual tournament...

Sang in front of strangers...

Lost 15kgs...

Joined more media events... to get my face and my name out there, especially with production houses...

Guess that's about it... for 2010... I aim to lose more weight, be more active in the media thing coz I want to write scripts and get them made... more active in bowling and treasure hunting, until I crack the top 3 spots...

Oh, and be more healthy and save more this year...

Parting Gifts

Got this message from a Londoner... wanting to come here and meet me... too good to be true...

So when something's too good to be true, usually it is...

Hero

So it's over... that'll teach me to dive into a relationship without the dating part... but it worked for some people... apparently I am not one of those people then. Sigh...

It's for the best... although I liked the package, something was missing and I don't see a future there...

Here's to you, we had a good time but that was it. Just a good time. I need more. Sorry...

I Will Remember You

Not sure if this is the smartest thing I have ever done... but hey, I have done my fair share of stupidity... so today I found myself in a relationship... yup, you read right...

Finally...

I don't do this stuff normally... I'd rather date and find out about the person and such, but in the past, I'd end up alone... so I am trying something new...

He talked me into it. We met once yesterday. Spent the night together. Had sex like 6 times and in the morning, we are boyfriendly.

It helps that he is super cute. Good God I think I am shallow...

The Bachelor Party

I've been dating lately but it's not exactly a date when the guy is taken right?

Wonder why all these boyfriendly guys (rightfully so coz they have boyfriends) keep asking me out? Messaging me and wants to get to know me...

The thing about going out with these people is that you find them quite interesting and nice, but you know you can't have them...

That's the story of my life... sigh...

Sense and Sensitivity

Things are mucho loco at the office lately... I think it has to do with contract renewals... suddenly the higher ups are all hyper sensitive to everything and is following the rules like no one's business... just to impress the higher higher ups...

There's even accusations of dealing money under the table...

Bull la these people... not only do you underpay us, but you work us to the bone... and now you're making life actually miserable in the office... something has to be done...

Rm w/a Vu

Hmm, lessee... work sucks, no pay raise, no bonus, no increase in annual leave, no everything...

Love life sucks... I date and I date but nothing seems to work out... most of them are emotionally scarred and did not trust a person at all and seemed to think that while casually dating, one should cut oneself off of from the social scene altogether...

Social life is also on the fritz... sigh...

Life at home is also bad... the housemate has failed to pay rent yet again... two months rent already... I keep asking and asking and he kept giving excuses... I might ask him to move out next month, if this persists...

I also plan to kill that bitch ex-colleague of mine who still fails to pay even a single cent of my money back... she's living it up while I have to slum it... this bitch and the housemate is making my life miserable... I should kick their faces in...

I Fall To Pieces

Something's just doomed before it started... :(

Oh well, gotta move on...

Hmm, suddenly experiencing a lot of backlash from friends...

In the Dark

I think I am falling... but ordinarily when that happens, my heart gets stomped to pieces... no wait, the pieces get stomped to pieces... sigh...

Lonely Hearts

I have been dating this one guy lately. I like him. He's cute. Definitely my type.

But with my luck, he'll end up with someone else after a while. Sigh...

In other news, my housemate's eating every food I have in sight. He says he'll buy em back but I am not so sure... sigh...

City Of...

I got a housemate now. Just to ease the burden of paying the rent.

He has been living with me for the past week or so. And now I am seeing a pattern. He is kinda taking advantage of the fact that I like to have a fully stocked fridge and pantry.

I need to talk to him tonite and lay down the ground rules. The last time I had housemates, and I let that one housemate walk all over me... I was miserable... not again.

Chosen

Hmm, kinda appropriate that the title of this post is the title of the final episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

My part time stint during the weekends is coming to an end.

Am deeply saddened coz I love doing it. Sigh.

The silver lining? I now have my weekends free to pursue whatever it is that I wanna pursue. Or go back to my hometown and be with family...

The cloud? Money won't be enough to do anything... :(

End of Days

I realize that I've left out some friends in the celebration of my birthday. I promise I'll make it up to them.

This was the longest I've ever celebrated a birthday. Almost every day during the whole week.

It's nice to feel appreciated and I've gotten some nice presents too. :)

Even the people who I anticipated would not remember my birthday... remembered...

And starting tomorrow, I am attempting a slight change...